Wednesday, December 19, 2012

No This Can't Be All There Is.....

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As I prepare for bed tonight, the gates of Heaven are preparing to open for another angel.  At 89 years old, my grandfather is experiencing kidney failure and congestive heart failure.  When I think of God fearing Christians, he is the image that comes to mind.  He's earned his wings.  In my prayers tonight I ask that he be pain free, that he not be scared, that his son that he lost all those years ago be waiting for him at the gates.  This song sums up my feelings that there is more than what we see here on Earth...and he's one of the lucky ones that gets to go to the other side...

Old man Wrigley lived in that white house
Down the street where i grew up
Momma used to send me over with things
We struck a friendship up
I spent a few long summers out on his old porch swing

Says he was in the war when in the navy
Lost his wife, lost his baby
Broke down and asked him one time
How ya keep from going crazy
He said I'll see my wife and son in just a little while
I asked him what he meant
He looked at me and smiled, said

I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see
Oh i believe

Few years later i was off at college
Talkin' to mom on the phone one night
Getting all caught up on the gossip
The ins and outs of the small town life
She said oh by the way son, old man Wrigley's died.

Later on that night, i laid there thinkin' back
Thought 'bout a couple long-lost summers
I didn't know whether to cry or laugh
If there was ever anybody deserved a ticket to the other side
It'd be that sweet old man who looked me in the eye, said

I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see

I can't quote the book
The chapter or the verse
You can't tell me it all ends
In a slow ride in a hearse
You know I'm more and more convinced
The longer that i live
Yeah, this can't be
No, this can't be
No, this can't be all there is

When I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see
I believe
Oh, I
I believe
-Brooks & Dunn

Monday, December 17, 2012

Peace be with You

I can not imagine the pain the families feel, knowing they have kissed their child(ren) for the last time.  I attempt to put myself in their shoes and the pain is unreal.  The Christmas presents that are wrapped, sitting under their tree that will never be opened.  The clothes hanging in their closet that won't be worn again.  So much sadness and the inability to comprehend this action, this Momma's heart is torn in two.

I've had to remind both myself and my husband that there is good in this world.  We come into contact with good people everyday.  We surround ourselves with loving, caring, warm friends.  We do good deeds for others and donate our time and money to charities.  But those aren't the things you hear about on the news.  Be good to one another, help one another, love one another.

To those in Connecticut and those affected by this tragedy, I offer my prayers and tears. I have cried alongside you as the news shows the faces of your beautiful children.  I pray you find peace and find comfort at the fact you will be reunited with your babies again.  May God hold you in the palm of his hands.  I am so sorry for your loss.

Isaiah 40:11 - He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry [them] in his bosom, [and] shall gently lead those that are young.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Right about Now

Little boy surrounded by BIG trees
Wednesday night, curled up on the couch, smelling the scent of our Norwegian Pine.  The babe is curled up asleep and Scott is out in the garage putting new brakes on his truck.

Following tradition, we headed to the tree farm the day after Thanksgiving and cut down a beautiful Christmas tree.  Paisley loved running around in the tree farm and I was happy the perfect tree didn't take too long to find!  While putting it up in the dining room, I was a little nervous about the tree remaining in an upright position throughout the entire Christmas season.  I've since learned that Paisley does not like the way the needles feel when he touches the tree.  This is great, but now I worry about him grabbing a light strand and pulling the tree over.  Our tree is decorated...but only the top half.  It didn't take long to realize he was WAY to interested in ornaments for me to have them within his reach.  Sure our tree may look a little "different" being 1/2 decorated, but that's what happens when you have a toddler.

Probably shouldn't have carried an axe and a baby...
My Christmas shopping is done! Thank you Etsy, Amazon, and a few shops in town!  Not only are they purchased but they are also wrapped and nestled under our tree.

I feel surprisingly on top of the Christmas season.  I need to get stocking stuff figured out and my kitchen needs to turn into a bake shop for at least one full day...but Bing is singing to me in the background, my Christmas Cranberry candle is burning, and not a creature is stirring at our house.

Pretty Lights!
Last weekend I snuck away for the night and headed to French Lick with the girls.  We had a fantastic spa day, relaxed in our room and caught up on life, had an amazing dinner, and did a little gambling!  It was long over due and so good to relax.  Of course I missed my boys, but I needed a little me time!

I've been working a couple days a week at the University!  It was kind of a last minute thing as they were short staffed and asked if I could help out.  I figured if there is a time of the year when some extra $$ would be helpful, now would be that time.  I would rather be with P then working those two days, but I actually think it is healthy for both of us to have 2 days a week that we aren't together.  He gets to spend the time with his grammie and Nana and I get to spend time using my brain and having adult conversations.

I hope you are enjoying the spirit of the season and spending it with those you love.  Now if you'd excuse me, I think I hear some hot chocolate calling my name.
My girls and I at dinner

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